You're The One Mistake I Really Didn't Mind.

My brain is officially occupied now. Like, everything just combined as a piece of junk, and can't stop running around in my poor little brain.
I've thinking bout the past and the future.
Exams coming in 17 more days, and I haven't start revising yet. This is the moment when I feel there's too little time, but yet I want time to pass by faster so that I can go back to Sg and meet my friends, family etc. Contradicting myself.
Essay worries me 'cause I'm afraid I'll not get good score for it, or even worse, fail it. Accounting essay that is still 0% currently.
I'm missing Richard these few days. I have no idea why.
When everything's over, and yet I still squeeze my pea brain to figure out what went wrong.
My sis told me that Papi mentioned how expensive studying overseas is. Heard that and I feel like going back straight away. I feel damn bad for spending so much, in both education and life expenses. I don't mind going back Indo to study at normal government school. I don't even care if I'd just go and work right now, help Papi.
Mum is worried 'cause she thinks my social life is totally zero now.
Online 24/7 just to talk to my sis. Staying at home at Saturday and Sunday. She thinks I'm lacking of friends here. Which is half true. I have lotsa friends, but not friends whom I can hang out with. Even though I wanna hang out with them, that doesn't mean they wanna hang out with me. Perhaps I'm just not fun enough. Too boring, too serious, whatever it is. I love the personal time, but it's getting oh-so-lonely. But 'fraid not, I'm getting used to it.
I'm sooo scared that I can't get into Melb Uni.
Not only it will affect my future, it also means spending my parents' money for nothing. Not forgetting, wasting my time.
I'm worried for my Grandpa's health. Sis said he fell down again. Haven't got the details yet, but it makes me wanna cry when I heard that.
Drama exam next Tuesday and I still yet to hunt for face paint, or whatever you call that. 30% of the whole English mark, and I don't want to screw this up.
Kean just went back Malaysia and he's moving out. There goes another person that I can click well with.
And right now the computer is fucked up. I better stop typing before the whole thing goes hang and I have to re-type all these nonsense again.
To Dawn and Zoe, cheer up girls. I'm here for u ((= As always, you can talk to me about anything. And I do mean anything.
Last but not least, to Hazel, Happy birthday girl! Hope you like the dice & the awful birthday song in front of your house.
So, Adios~
Today marks the first winter in my life. But it was warm in the afternoon.